I feel fat

I feel fat. I'm 30 pounds over my normal weight. I'm used to being skinney. I can't do much about it becuase the second I go on a smigon of a diet, my breast milk waves bye-bye.

Now that my temper tantrum is over, I can face reality. There is a lot I can do. Being healthy is hard work. I can work out. I can not eat junk food. I can write down what I eat. I can drink water. I would rather complain and temper tantrum than do these hard things. The fact of the matter is that I have been writing what I eat and not eating junk food. Right now I'm eating junk food. Movie style popcorn. It's not that great. I wish Scott wouldn't buy it. I wish I wouldn't eat it. I just wanted something

So that's my story. Tomorrow I will post more. My goal is to write for 10 minutes a day.